What Do You See?

But the man that is will shadow the man that pretends to be.
— T.S. Eliot
What do you see?
Sebastian Modarelli

Sebastian Modarelli - The Gaze of Reality

What do you see when you open your window in the morning? If asked, we would likely start listing things: trees, grass, cars, people, sunshine, or rain. However, if we were born today with the awareness of an adult, we would be struck by their very existence—by the profound fact of "being." A heart that views reality with simplicity is drawn to an ultimate "Mystery" at the core of all things. Nothing is more moving than looking at ourselves and others while recognizing the Mystery dwelling within us—something words cannot fully describe, yet so real that without it, we understand nothing of what we see.

Pope Benedict XVI, with his characteristic brilliance, put it best:

"Since we are born in original sin, for us 'reality' means tangible things: money, my position, the everyday things we see in the news. This is what we call reality. Spiritual things appear to be 'behind' or less real. Metanoia—a change in our way of thinking—means inverting this impression. Neither material things, money, buildings, nor anything we possess constitute the essential reality. The reality of realities is God. This invisible reality, seemingly far from us, is the true reality." (Meeting with the Parish Priests of the Rome Diocese, March 10, 2011)

If this sounds like abstract thinking, consider that there was a man in history who looked at everyone with that exact gaze: Jesus of Nazareth. This is the essence of conversion: to see what you didn't see before. When a woman known to be a sinner approached Jesus to wash his feet, the Pharisees (representing us) said, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who and what sort of woman is touching him." The problem wasn't that He didn't know her; it was the opposite. He knew her to her very core—a depth the Pharisees couldn't reach.

Every era has its own "outcasts"—whether defined by race, creed, or status. Without this gaze, we understand nothing of them, and we inevitably treat them with violence (and let’s be clear: indifference is its own form of violence).

The musical piece I am sharing today attempts to express this reality through Jesus’s encounter with the woman caught in adultery. The music doesn't dwell on her "immorality" or offer a sugar-coated version of the pain our failures cause. Instead, it tries to convey the depth of that loving gaze that once, in history, embraced the unfathomable mystery of our being.

Gospel of John. Chapter 8 (Subtitles in Italian) Music by Sebastian Modarelli. www.sebastianmodarelli.com

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