Thomas’s Doubt, Our Healing

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Thomas’s Doubt, Our Healing
Julián Carrón

Julián Carrón - Thomas doubted, touched, and believed—and his wound became the healing of ours.

The Gospel takes us to the heart of that evening, the first day of the week. The doors are locked. The disciples are shut inside that room, paralyzed by fear. Outside stands the world that has just crucified their Master. Inside, the heavy silence of men who have lost everything. And it is precisely there—in that silence, in that confinement, in that fear—that the unimaginable happens. Jesus comes. He stands among them. And He says: “Peace be with you!”

This is how it begins. Not with a spiritual reflection. Not with a nice, comforting idea. With An Event—a miracle that surprises even the disciples themselves. They did not expect it. They could not have produced it. And Jesus bursts into that fear with His living, real Presence.

He understands their difficulty. He knows how hard it is to believe what their eyes are seeing—so unexpected and unpredictable is it. So He comes to meet them: He shows them His hands and His side. Through those wounds, the disciples recognize the face of the One with whom they had shared so many hours, whose miracles they had admired, whose teaching they had heard, and whom they had then watched die on the cross. It is Him. The same One. And He is alive.

No wonder, then, that the Gospel concludes with these simple, magnificent words: “The disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord.” Who among us would not have rejoiced? That recognition transforms them. From men locked inside their fear, they become witnesses: “We have seen the Lord!”

But someone was not there that evening. Thomas. And when the others tell him what they have seen, he refuses to believe: “Unless I see the mark of the nails in His hands and put my finger into the mark of the nails and put my hand into His side, I will not believe.”

And Jesus? He does not abandon him. A week later He returns, and this time Thomas is there. Again the doors are locked. Again the greeting: “Peace be with you!” Then, addressing Thomas directly—with a tenderness that moves us—He says: “Put your finger here and see My hands; reach out your hand and put it into My side. Do not be unbelieving, but believe!”

Jesus bends to Thomas’s difficulty. He makes Himself available exactly where Thomas can reach Him. He takes his pain, his resistance, and his need seriously. The irriducibilità dell’io—the irreducible core of Thomas’s “I”—is not bypassed or overridden. It is met. And it is precisely through this gesture of infinite condescension that the highest confession of faith in the entire Gospel of John rises from the disciple’s lips: “My Lord and my God!”

Probably no one grasped the significance of this episode better than St. Gregory the Great. With his characteristic depth, the great Pope writes: “Do you think it was mere chance that that chosen disciple was absent, and then upon arriving heard of The Event, and upon hearing doubted, and upon doubting touched, and upon touching believed? No—this did not happen by chance, but by divine providence.” Gregory sees the design. The Lord’s mercy worked in a marvelous way: the disciple who doubted and touched the wounds of his Master’s body healed in us the wounds of unbelief. Thomas’s doubt has done more for our faith than the belief of the other disciples. For while Thomas is brought back to faith by touching, our minds are strengthened by overcoming every doubt. The disciple who doubted and touched became a witness to the truth of the Resurrection.

We who come after Thomas can believe thanks to the testimony of those who, like him, have seen. “Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed!” Jesus says. And whoever relies on this testimony and believes will be able to see the truth of the Resurrection confirmed in their own life—filled with signs that bear it out.

This is why the Gospel ends as it does: “Jesus performed many other signs in the presence of His disciples, which are not written in this book. But these have been written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in His name.” We have not seen as the apostles did. But by believing their testimony, we can see that it is true—because we have life in His name. The new life that moves within us confirms the truth of His Resurrection, here and now. This is not nostalgia for a distant event. It is “correspondence”—the lived verification that what happened to Thomas is happening to us.

Julián Carrón

Julián Carrón, born in 1950 in Spain, is a Catholic priest and theologian. Ordained in 1975, he obtained a degree in Theology from Comillas Pontifical University. Carrón has held professorships at prestigious institutions, including the Catholic University of the Sacred Heart in Milan. In 2004, he moved to Milan at the request of Fr. Luigi Giussani, founder of Communion and Liberation. Following Giussani's death in 2005, Carrón became President of the Fraternity of Communion and Liberation, a position he held until 2021. Known for his work on Gospel historicity, Carrón has published extensively and participated in Church synods, meeting with both Pope Benedict XVI and Pope Francis.

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