All or Nothing

Sister Clare Crockett smiling beside the handwritten phrase “All or Nothing!"

All or Nothing: Sister Clare Crockett and the Boldness of Trust

What trust Mary must have had, to corner Jesus with his own words.
— Pierluigi Banna
Pierluigi Banna All or Nothing

PierLuigi Banna - The Boldness of a Woman's Trust: From Mary of Bethany to today, a feminine boldness that becomes prayer to God.

“Come and see”: Jesus burst into tears when he heard these words from Mary of Bethany. He had not wept at Lazarus’s death, yet he could no longer hold back his emotion when he saw Mary repeat the words—those very words—she had heard from him: “Come and see.”

What trust Mary must have had, to corner Jesus with his own words. As St. Ambrose writes in his commentary on this episode, with those words Mary speaks not only for herself; she becomes the voice of the whole Church and so draws out Jesus’ response: “The Lord Jesus weeps, for he will not let the Church weep alone. In compassion for his beloved, he says to the dead man: ‘Come out.’”

Mary’s boldness seems to echo in other women who meet Jesus. And he chooses to “obey” an almost brazen trust that speaks for an entire people. This is not emotional blackmail, nor an attempt to control his miraculous power: Jesus has always slipped free of that kind of calculation. On the contrary, he is surprised at how his own words have become a certainty for them.

This trust, so wholly feminine, punctuates and sustains the history of the Church. Setting aside the stories of better-known spiritual figures, I like to recall Sister Clare Crockett, who converted in 2000 and died at thirty-three in 2016, in an earthquake in Ecuador, where she was serving on mission. One day Clare couldn’t concentrate during Mass, and so she too dared to provoke Jesus with words much like his own: “That woman sitting there, praying in front of me—that’s you, Lord.” At that, the woman turned around, took Sister Clare’s hands and began to kiss them, and started reciting the Our Father out loud—right in the middle of Mass! Everyone in the church burst out laughing, but Sister Clare was moved, and recognized the Lord’s answer to her prayers: he had kissed her hands and thanked her.

Recently I found, in a young woman of twenty-one, the same trust that Mary of Bethany and Sister Clare had. Faced with a deeply complicated situation, she told me she had offered a prayer much like theirs: “Lord, will you take responsibility for having made me this way?” I am convinced that God, moved, will find—if he has not already found—a way to answer such trust, and that true life will be reborn around this young woman.

This trust in Christ, so wholly feminine, opens history to receive God’s presence—moved and at work—in a way that is new and unexpected. It is this trust that holds entire families on their feet, and surely the great family of the Church.

Pierluigi Banna is a Priest of the Diocese of Milan, patrologist

Pierluigi Banna

Pierluigi Banna, born in 1984, is an Italian Catholic theologian and clergyman. He holds a PhD in Systematic Theology and History, teaching at the Faculty of Theology of Northern Italy and Catholic University in Milan. Banna's research focuses on patristics and early Christianity's relationship with ancient philosophy. He actively contributes to academic discourse, exploring faith, reason, and contemporary cultural issues.

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