Beyond Fear

Close-up of an open hand reaching out toward the open ocean with a stainless steel wristwatch on the wrist.

Reaching out toward the open horizon amid the moving waters.

What had enabled Peter to walk on the water in such a stormy sea? He had not taken his eyes off Jesus
— Julián Carrón
Julián Carrón Beyond Fear

Julián Carrón— Elijah on Horeb, Peter on the water: Carrón on what holds when fear arrives.

The prophet Elijah had defeated the prophets of Baal — a resounding victory. And that victory was exactly why Queen Jezebel swore revenge and set out to kill him. Elijah had to run, and he took refuge on Mount Horeb. Hiding there, he felt that everything was over, to the point of begging: “Enough now, Lord! Take my life.” Fear had taken hold of him in the face of Jezebel’s persecution.

But God shows him His closeness and His power in the simplest way: not in thunder, not in a great roar, but in a “breeze,” a gentle wind that seems like nothing — and yet it is enough for Elijah to perceive it.

The disciples have a similar experience. When they see Jesus coming across the water, their first thought is, “It’s a ghost!” Often it is the same for us: a ghost, something with no substance to it, nothing to face life with, nothing to face our fears with. And, as with Elijah, it seems the only way out is to die.

Jesus says, “Take courage; it is I—do not be afraid!” And Peter, already used to his friend’s surprises, answers Him: “If it is You, command me to come to You on the water.” Jesus responds to Peter’s request and shows him His kindness: “Come!”—to assure him that it really is Him. But what so often happens to us happens to Peter too: we get scared the moment a slight breeze picks up. “The wind was strong, and he was afraid.” He begins to sink and realizes his own fragility — like Elijah, who had triumphed over the prophets of Baal and then felt the full weight of his fragility the moment his life was at risk. Peter, too, when the wind picks up, feels fragile, because there is nothing he can do, and fear overwhelms him. So he cries out: “Lord, save me!”

Jesus reveals Himself to each of us, just as He did to them, through all of life’s challenges: not alongside life, but inside life itself — in the challenges, in the fear, in everything that makes us doubt. His whole passion for us is to help us understand that He is not a ghost, but a Presence so real that with Him we can overcome fear in whatever situation we find ourselves. It is as if, every time, He were saying to us: “Why are you so anxious? I am here. I am not a ghost. It is I—I am with you.”

This is the path God takes with everyone He calls, just as He did with Elijah. It is the same path Jesus took with the disciples, and the same one He takes with us. Otherwise, doubt wins out. And right there, when doubt sets in, Jesus appears, reaches out His hand, takes hold of him, and says, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” That line sounds like nothing more than a rebuke, but it is something else entirely: it is an act of tenderness. “Why do you doubt? Haven’t you already seen Me triumph so many times before? Why don’t you have faith? Why don’t you trust Me? Why don’t you recognize Me?” At that point, “as soon as they got into the boat, the wind died down.” And everyone was amazed: “Truly, You are the Son of God!”

What had enabled Peter to walk on the water in such a stormy sea? He had not taken his eyes off Jesus. The whole point of life is not to become people who need no one, so powerful that they are self-sufficient and independent. All our strength lies in Peter’s example: not taking our eyes off the Presence that sustains us. And not because hard circumstances go away — the wind may rise, anything can happen, even persecution, as with Elijah. But it is precisely inside everything we are not spared that He reveals Himself and convinces us, bringing us to the certainty that He is no ghost. It may happen to us as it did to them, but all of it is only so that we, like them, may recognize Him again, and come out of any situation, any challenge, with a stronger certainty: “Truly, You are the Son of God!”

Julián Carrón

Julián Carrón, born in 1950 in Spain, is a Catholic priest and theologian. Ordained in 1975, he obtained a degree in Theology from Comillas Pontifical University. Carrón has held professorships at prestigious institutions, including the Catholic University of the Sacred Heart in Milan. In 2004, he moved to Milan at the request of Fr. Luigi Giussani, founder of Communion and Liberation. Following Giussani's death in 2005, Carrón became President of the Fraternity of Communion and Liberation, a position he held until 2021. Known for his work on Gospel historicity, Carrón has published extensively and participated in Church synods, meeting with both Pope Benedict XVI and Pope Francis.

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