The Moment After

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The moment after” is the instant that follows a real encounter with God — the surprise, the recognition, the grace — when our first instinct is to take control of what we have just received. Scripture shows it in Peter: minutes after confessing Christ, he rebukes Him. The moment after exposes whether we will stay dependent on the Mystery or manage it ourselves.
— Simone Riva
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Simone Riva - The Moment After: When We Reach Out to Take Grace Into Our Own Hands

In an instant, reality exposes our presumption: that we can control Grace. Usually we notice only the moment after. And that, too, is a gift — if we let ourselves be wounded.

The account of the moment after the profession of faith — and the commission that follows it — is merciless. It confirms that "flesh and blood" had not revealed to Peter what had just burst out of his mouth. The evangelist does not gloss over what may be the most embarrassing episode in the life of the first of the apostles, or over Peter's reaction to Jesus' announcement of the passion awaiting him: "Then Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him, 'God forbid, Lord! No such thing shall ever happen to you.' He turned and said to Peter, 'Get behind me, Satan! You are an obstacle to me. You are thinking not as God does, but as human beings do'" (Mt 16:21–23).

The moment after, Peter's real position comes to light — a position with nothing at all to do with what he had been given the grace to recognize an instant earlier. The Gospel, like our own lives, is full of these "moments after." The exceptional character of an event, the surprise of an encounter, the beauty of an experience, even the discovery of something new about ourselves: all of it can collapse, swept away by our urge to take the thing in hand, as if to say, "I've got it from here."

Anyone who got to see the beautiful exhibit the Rimini Meeting devoted to the life of Sister Clare Crockett will have noticed the same dynamic at work. This very young Irish woman, converted to Christ in an instant despite all her resistance, found herself a moment later living a life even more disordered than before.

The abyss of desire that the Lord's presence reopens in our hearts cannot be tamed, and our first instinct is to fill it with whatever is at hand — good or bad. We stand in front of God as though He had come to answer our questions, instead of recognizing Him as the answer already present inside the question.

This is how the "festival of the great short circuit" begins, the one Fr. Giussani described so well many years ago: "The power of the question lies in the other who is present, not in you. This is the difference between all the greatness of spirit found in man — whether Epicurean or Stoic, depending on the various interpretations — and the Christian. For the ordinary man, what matters is what he is capable of doing, capable of overcoming in himself (whether Stoic or Epicurean). And for the Christian… it is like a child: he is entirely drawn to the presence of his mother, his father, the other. It is the power of God" (Luigi Giussani, Una presenza che cambia, BUR, Milan 2004, p. 122).

The moment after pulls no punches. It reveals whether we are really willing to reckon with the change that what happens outside us works inside us — or whether we would rather have everything go on as before, in a balanced, moderate, neutral life, playing the part of respectable people who can take the hardest blows on the chin and always say the right thing.

The life of those who let themselves be wounded, though — those who delight in their dependence on the Mystery — speaks for itself. It needs no billboards. Another exhibit at the Meeting showed as much, the one on Madeleine Delbrêl (1904–1964), who describes her conversion this way: "[…] A fact: my encounter with a few young Christians — no older, no more foolish, no more 'idealistic' than I was — who lived the same life I did, argued as much as I did, and danced as much as I did. […] They talked about everything, but also about God, who seemed to them as indispensable as the air. After spending several months in their company, I could no longer honestly turn away — in the face of the absurd — not from their God, but from God. […] I chose what seemed to me to correspond best to my change of perspective: I decided to pray. I prayed on my knees from the very first time. I did it that day and on many days after, without looking at my watch. By reading and reflecting I found God; by praying I came to see that He had found me" (in Città marxista terra di missione, 1957).

The moment after, the question breaks wide open: for which of us is Christ, in order to live, "as indispensable as the air"? Everything else belongs to calculation — and calculation does not hold up over time.

Simone Riva

Don Simone Riva, born in 1982, is an Italian Catholic priest ordained in 2008. He serves as parochial vicar in Monza and teaches religion. Influenced by experiences in Peru, Riva authors books, maintains an active social media presence, and participates in religious discussions. He's known for engaging youth and connecting faith with contemporary

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